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Panic! At The Disco - The Ballad of Mona Lisa

2012-01-19T08:43:00.001+07:00

She paints her fingers with a close precision

He starts to notice empty bottles of gin

And takes a moment to assess the sin she's paid for

A lonely speaker in a conversation

Her words are spinning through his ears again

There's nothing wrong with just a taste of what you've paid for

Say what you mean, tell me I'm right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign, I want to believe

Whoa, Mona Lisa

You're guaranteed to run this town

Whoa, Mona Lisa

I'd pay to see you frown

He senses something, call it desperation

Another dollar, another day

And if she had the proper words to say, she would tell him

But she'd have nothing left to sell him

Say what you mean, tell me I'm right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign, I want to believe

Whoa, Mona Lisa

You're guaranteed to run this town

Whoa, Mona Lisa

I'd pay to see you frown

Mona Lisa, wear me out

Pleased to please Mona Lisa, wear me out

Say what you mean, tell me I'm right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign, I want to believe

Whoa, Mona Lisa

You're guaranteed to run this town

Whoa, Mona Lisa

I'd pay to see you frown

Say what you mean, tell me I'm right

And let the sun rain down on me

Give me a sign, I want to believe

There's nothing wrong with just a taste

Of what you've paid for...

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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I Want You To Be Mine

2012-01-17T10:18:00.001+07:00

I walk alone with my heart

Try to look for you

Wherever you are

Whoever you are

I live alone with my heart

Try to stand up for nothing

Even you don't know

Even you don't care

Watch you from behind is a gift for me

Look into your eyes is the moment that I dream

Hold your hand is one thing that I know

And become yours is the one that I need

I chased your shadow in the darkness

and it seemed like a stupid love

Being stalker when we're far apart

and I just laugh in my bitterness

I pray all the nights with my heart

Hope all my dreams and hopes and my wish

come true...

I want you to be mine

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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A Sweet Story in Lines

2012-01-17T10:12:00.003+07:00

You really have the beautiful eyes that I've ever seen. Thanks for looking at me when I look into your eyes so deeply.
You really have the sweetest smile that I've ever seen. Thanks for spreading your happiness with your warmth.

You really have the most kind heart that I've ever known. Thanks for being care with others, especially with me.

You really have the most pretty heart that I've ever felt. Thanks for showing me your love and make me comfort.

You really know how to be an romantic person.

Thanks for keep playing your guitar and sing so many songs for me.
You really know how to love and capture your life.
Thanks for making everything so good, awesome, and sweet like a sugar.
You really know how to face this fear and the foolishness.
Thanks for keep holding my hand and bring me to your imaginary world.

Yes, you really have myself.
Thanks for keep touching my heart.
The end.

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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One Direction - What Make You Beautiful

2012-01-17T08:01:00.002+07:00

[Verse 1]

[Liam]

You're insecure,

Don't know what for,

You're turning heads when you walk through the door,

Don't need make-up,

To cover up,

Being the way that you are is enough,

[Bridge]

[Harry]

Everyone else in the room can see it,

Everyone else but you,

[Chorus]

[All]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

If only you saw what I can see,

You'll understand why I want you so desperately,

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

Oh oh,

That's what makes you beautiful

[Verse 2]

[Zayn]

So c-come on,

You got it wrong,

To prove I'm right,

I put it in a song,

I don't know why,

You're being shy,

And turn away when I look into your eye eye eyes,

[Bridge]

[Harry]

Everyone else in the room can see it,

Everyone else but you,

[Chorus]

[All]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

If only you saw what I can see,

You'll understand why I want you so desperately,

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

Oh oh,

That's what makes you beautiful

Na Na Na Na Na Na Naaa,

Na Na Na Na Na Na Na Na [x2]

[Middle 8]

[Harry]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

[Chorus]

[All]

Baby you light up my world like nobody else,

The way that you flip your hair gets me overwhelmed,

But when you smile at the ground it ain't hard to tell,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

If only you saw what I can see,

You'll understand why I want you so desperately,

Right now I'm looking at you and I can't believe,

You don't know,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

Oh oh,

You don't know you're beautiful,

Oh oh,

That's what makes you beautiful

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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Class of Creative and Critical Thinking ♥

2012-01-12T13:55:00.003+07:00

Well, the last Tuesday was the most fun class with Pak Ari and all of friends from ILKOM B 2011 in Class of Creative and Critical Thinking. We just called it as, “our event”. So, we had some performances from each group, played about 2 games, enjoy the performance in break-time, exchanged gift, and party! Wohooo! Trust me, everything’s so much fun!

I’m from the first group. My group is consist of Natalia, Hening, Marshall, Chen, Yosefin, Engel, Monic, Kevin, and me. We performed a drama with title “Malin Kandung”. To be honest, we didn’t do some practices together so seriously. We just laughed and laughed when we tried to play our own role that we should be.

You know, at the day, we got the first turn and everything’s became so creepy. We just played our role as well as we could. Yeaayy… most of friends laughed out loud because our action on stage. Thanks for the first turn, it’s fresh! (Photos? Coming soon!)

Then, we had 3 performances from 3 others. That room looked so happy because everybody laughed. It seemed that there’s no something that weighing our mind. We just wanted to enjoy the performances and be happy!

The last session of that event was exchange gift. I got a pair of sandals from Dita. Hihihihi. Thank you, dear! Then, we got a time to take some photos together. Whooaaa… I will miss these moments with ILKOM B 2011 like this. Really. Anyway, my group became the best group of CCT Class! Unbelievable! Pak Ari said that our performance got the second rank in class and we got additional points from games. Thank you for all of you ♥

Oh yes, these are the pictures that we took at the day. Thanks for everyone who already used my SLR and helped me to get some good pictures. Here they are. Enjoy!

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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Happy Two Thousand and Twelve ♥♥

2012-01-01T13:11:00.004+07:00

5... 4... 3... 2... 1...

Welcome to 2012 for everyone! Finally, 2012 is coming to our life and everything looks so wonderful. It's cheerful, peaceful, so lovely, and full of happiness. Oh God, really thanks for 2011. I learned so many things from it. Let me make a list of 2011 and share it to you, guys :)

1. I started 2011 at church. Looking for some news to write to WARNA Magazine. Just mention it as being a journalist. Aha! I did it with Orang Muda Katolik and I made some friends with each other. Actually, I had a plan for having barbecue at home with my family. But, God said that I should go to church and celebrated New Year Eve there. As always, fireworks became the best part of New Year Eve. Wohooo :D

2. Done with all the tasks, assignments, Try Out(s), examination(s) in High School. Me and my friends have already did the best to passed the score. Thanks God, LULUS 100% :) The other thing that made me happy is I could reach Top 5 as I wanted in High School. Overall, I'm proud of myself, my parents also. There's nothing useless if we want to study-hard because what we give is what we get. Make your own tarhet and we have to struggle and survive to reach the goal.

3. Hah! The silly thing that I already did is... MOVING ON! Hahaha. I just felt like I'm a winner because I could go out from a big hole of the bitterness. Finally, after a year I fought with my love, my heart, my pain, my fuckin' sadness, God gave me the other way to show the power inside my soul. He opened all the facts behind me through my friends. He really knew how to made me move and move. Cheers :D

4. College-life. Seemed so different from High School. I've tried hard to make an adjustment with the new environment. I just wanna enjoy this new life even sometimes... I really miss my High School Moments like hell. Sure. Honestly, I swear I miss the times of wearing the same uniforms with the other students. We don't need to think hard to choose what dress or clothes that we will wear for tomorrow. Then, I miss my school-mates like crazy. Hang out together, laugh like you never did, become so tricky! I know for sure that those moments sometimes are better than college-life.

5. I got my Blackberry. Hehehehe. Thank you for Mom and Dad who already bought this gadget to me. This smart-phone is really really helpful to make an effective communication even it's often "pending". Huh!

6. I got my 18th birthday surprised from my friends (Sindhu and Madol) at the midnight. They came to my house with pajamas and we laughed like crazy. Moreover, we took some photos and you know... How I was feeling blue with them, especially Sindhu Monkeeeyyy! Well... Then, I got some gifts from some of friends. I really love them and I couldn't believe that they really love me. Thanks for being care and nice to have you all in my life. Love you, guys!

7. I had a beautiful Christmas. I didn't know why. I just felt that this was the best Christmas I've ever had. Maybe I already told you the reasons about it. Just check my previously posting on my blog :)

8. I had a chance to work while waiting a new life at college. I love to earn money because I could use my power or energy, my brain, my effort, and my loveliness to work somewhere out there. I just fought this laziness so hard. You know, experiences are the best thing in thing life. It's very expensive and everybody couldn't but it with money. I thanked to God because I might gave a chance for having part-time and got my own money.

9. The best score for the first Mid Semester Test of College. Wow! It amazed me. Thanks God! But, maybe I felt that still there's a less score for one subject. I will increase the score! Amen. I really hope that I could keep the score up and up, so I will get the highest score for my IP. Please, wish me luck for UAS at the end of January 2012. God bless us!

10. I celebrated New Year Eve 2012 with my family on the street near SMS mall. Yeah it's crowded and the traffic was very busy. Watching the colors of fireworks like that was the best moment ever at the end of this year. I took some photos of if. But, I'm so sorry because I haven't re-sized all the photos yet. Next time, maybe :)

At least, I just wanna praise the Lord because all the things that I've already accepted in my whole life. It's a wonderful life and I got something better than I could wish. Thanks God for everything. You made my 2011 full of unforgettable experiences and of course, it's full of learning also. I realized that there's nothing in this world which we could get so easily. It needs effort and we should works hardly. In 2011, God taught me how it felt if we're on the top or when we're the below. You taught me how to work-hard to get what I really want, so I shouldn't weighing my parents anymore.

Many people said, "Learn from yesterday, live for today and hope for tomorrow." Let celebrate this New Year Eve with new spirit, commitment to be a better person for ourselves and for others. I just hope that 2012 will be a better year for our life. That's it! There's no more war, some cheaply issues (like doomsday or whatever), terrorism, disasters, or something worst for us. I wish that we will be more healthy, get prosperity, responsible for our own task, assignments, or something that we should do, get lucky, everything's gonna be alright, and all the wishes that we have in our whole life become true.

Don't ever stop to pray and give the best for all the people around us. God will appreciate all the things that we've done which called efforts.

Anyway, thanks guys for being part of my fabulous 2011. God bless ya for rockin' this 2012!!! Have fun for everybody. Enjoy your life and don't waste your time. Cheers *beer*

photography: Sintia Astarina and Hariton Harinata

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Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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Skating at SkyRink ♥

2011-12-30T21:29:00.001+07:00

Many days ago, I went to Taman Anggrek, Jakarta with all the craziest friend. They are Titi, Aan, Bono, Piyun, and Nanda. Well, we had so much fun there and we laughed out loud like we never did. Below, these are the pictures when we played ice-skating! That was the first time of me and i seemed so...... WOW!

I just couldn't stop laughing and screaming! I guess that I've already burned so many calories HAHAHA! Moreover, I fell down to the ice for 3 times. Great! Nevertheless, we remained so happy and that was so awesome! Thank you, friends ♥

Much love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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Jalang: Merebut Jantung dan Hati

2011-12-29T22:53:00.001+07:00

Kuikuti dia dari belakang, langkahnya semakin cepat. Kukejar dia menuju samping, cepat langkahnya tak sedikitpun berhenti. Yang kusangka ia akan bergeming sejenak dan tanyakan kenapa. Yang ada malah kebalikannya. Dia berlari secepat ia bisa berlari dengan kokoh kaki-kaki tak terlihat. Ya, cepat! Seperti kilat menderu-deru yang tengah menangkap desiran angin.

Ingin rasanya kubeberkan guratan senja mengalir di tengah luasnya perairan yang memetamorfosakan warna. Lalu, kupandangi alam kemilau yang tak lagi jernih akibat gemerlap cahaya sore. Padahal, ingin sekali kulukiskan gumpalan waktu di ujung timur yang terus mengalir bagai longsor. Kuharap dia tak mati.

"Berhenti! Kumohon!" pintaku dengan nada tegas, dalam hatiku memelas sangat. Tapi, ia malah terus berlari. Kukejar ia hingga kutemukan ujung bumi. Mencegahnya hingga mau berhenti.

"Berhenti! Hey, kubilang berhenti! Tak bisakah kau dengarkan gema suaraku yang melampaui langkahmu? Aku lelah mengejarmu terus-menerus."

Tiba-tiba dia berhenti. Lalu, keheningan meliputi. Kuharap ia bicara.

"Kenapa kau pergi? Aku mengikuti jejakmu dari tahun kemarin, berharap bisa menemukanmu dan sisa bayangmu yang tertinggal."

"Kukira kau ada maksud lain. Apa isi perkataanmu?"

Lalu diam. Diam lagi.

"Tak tahukah kau kenapa aku mengejarmu? Mencari sosokmu?"

"Tidak."

"Coba tebak."

"Tidak mau."

"Kenapa?"

"Untuk apa?"

"Untuk mencari jawaban."

"Siapa yang butuh jawaban. Diriku?"

"Tidakkah kau merasa risih kuikuti dari belakang? Aku memerhatikan jejakmu dan kuikuti ekormu. Ada yang tertinggal di sana." Aku menunjuk tubuhnya dengan leluasa. Aku berusaha mendekat, mencoba mendekat, lalu mendekat, lalu dekat, dan sedekat-dekatnya.

"Kau mau apa?"

"Suka-sukaku."

"Mau apa kau?"

"Urusanku."

"KAU MAU APA?"

"Mengambil jantung dan hatiku."

Ia mengernyitkan dahinya. Tampak jelas satuan garis-garis tak beraturan yang memenuhi dahinya. Otakku diracuni wajah busuknya. Kubayangkan wajah tampannya dalam-dalam. Kumasukkan ke dalam mulutku dan kutelan bulat-bulan. Tenggorokkanku rasanya perih dan bersisik ketika bersentuhan dengan wajah yang semakin hari semakin menua.

Tak kusangka, ia menatapku lekat-lekat. Hampir mati aku dibuatnya. Tatapan serigala yang dulu membuatku jatuh bangun, kini terlihat sungguh memuakkan. Ah, aku tak peduli dan sungguh tak peduli.

"Aku hendak mengambil hatiku."

"Jalang! Apa maksudmu?" Ia menamparku dengan tangan kanannya yang besar dan lebar. Pemandangan biasa yang akan kusaksikan dengan mata kepalaku sendiri. Memar, merah, biru, dan melebam. Tubuhku yang mulai peyotlah sasarannya.

Aku yang kesakitan mencoba bangkit berdiri. Kukepalkan tangan kananku sekuat aku mampu dan kutinju keras-keras dadanya yang bidang. Sudah kupikirkan, ia mampu menahan pukulan tanganku yang tak berarti barang sedikitpun di badannya. Merasa sakit seperti digigit semut merah pun tidak. Tidak sama sekali.

"Di sini. Di dalam dada ini kau ambil organ-organ kepunyaanku. Tidakkah kau ingat kalau kau telah mengambil paksa jantungku? Hatiku ikut bersamanya! Sekarang, kuminta mereka kembali!"

"Jangan harap!"

"Mereka milikku utuh!"

"Hah! Kau pasti bermimpi. Jantung apa? Hati apa? Apa yang harus kukembalikan pada perempuan seperti kau, Jalang?!"

"Semua! SEMUA!"

"Cih! Apa yang akan kaulakukan bila aku tak mau mengembalikannya padamu? Kau mau membunuhku? Kau mau memotong nyawaku?"

"Kupaksa kau sampai mau."

"Takkan mempan."

"Bagaimana kalau ampuh? Aku pasti bisa!"

"HAHAHAHA…!!!” Ia tertawa keras menghinaku. "Jantungmu telah retak. Ia hanya mampu berdetak kalau kupompa. Hatimu telah menjadi serpihan-serpihan tak berguna. Seperti serbuk yang akan terbang melayang dibawa dewa angin. Lalu, untuk apa kau minta kembali?"

Aku terdiam. Mencoba mencari rangkaian kata-kata yang tertutup pasir. Aku buta. Aku tuli. Tak bisa kucari rangkaian kalimat yang tepat untuk kulontarkan dan kumuntahkan ke depan wajahnya.

"Sudah kukira, kau takkan bisa menjawabnya!"

"Tunggu! Biarkan aku memutar otakku sejenak karena aku punya alasan."

"Satu... Dua... Ti..."

"Hentikan! Biar kujelaskan."

Kutatap lekat matanya hingga ia bergeming. Kugetarkan aliran-aliran getar halus yang merambati seluruh tubuhnya. Kuberikan pancaran-pancaran Ilahi yang sama sekali tak pernah kuberikan kepada mahkluk lain. Aku menghipnotisnya. Aku menghipnotisnya atas nama alam yang bergaung merdu di tengah lautan, di atas langit kelabu, di dasar laut terbawah, dan di dalam rongga dadanya, tempat di mana jantung dan hatiku tersimpan di sana.

“Badai! Berani-beraninya kau telanjang di depan Matahari, perempuan lain selain aku, belahan jiwamu?” aku menatap ngeri pemandangan di depanku. Hina! Kulihat Badai, lelakiku dan Matahari, selingkuhannya tanpa satu helai pakaian pun yang melekat di tubuh mereka. Kunistakan mereka karena rela bermain api di belakangku.

“Ja-Jalang…”

“Tak perlu lagi kau panggil namaku! Kukutuk kau atas nama langit dan tenah tempat berlindung. Kau teah berdusta, berdusta atas nama cinta yang telah terjaga selama ribuan tahun lamanya. Jahanam kau, Badai!” kutumpahkan linangan air mata yang mengalir deras bagai air terjun. Hatiku bergulung-gulung bagaikan ombak yang menunggu terjangan tsunami.

“Jalang! Kau memang jalang! Hah! Tahu rasa kau sekarang. Sudah kubilang jangan kau paksa aku untuk mengambil separuh hatimu. Kautitipkan jantungmu dan kauselipkan di rongga dadaku. Siapa suruh kau merelakannya untukku? Cukup puas aku merasakan halus mulus tubuhmu! Pergi kau!”

Ia mendampratku hingga aku tak ada lagi harganya di kedua mata buasnya. Ia berbisa. Ia sungguh berbisa. Dibuangnya aku seperti permen karet yang tak ada manis-manisnya sedikitpun dalam mulut baunya. Satu hal yang kutahu, Matahari tersenyum licik. Ia dapat menginjak-injak tubuhku sesuka yang ia mau. Toh, Badai mencintainya dan siapapun berpihak padanya.

“Badai, pandangi gerak bibirku dan camkan perkataanku. Kukira kau ingat janji sumpah serapah yang kau iya-kan.”

“Maksudmu?”

Aku tertawa dengan segala kesinisan yang melambung tinggi melampaui rasa egoisku. Tak sabar aku berucap, “Kan kurobek dadamu yang kekar. Kan kurebut kembali jantung dan hatiku yang dengan rela kuberikan kepadamu dulu. Ingat, jantung dan hatiku telah menyatu dengan jantung dan hatimu. Jangan salahkan aku bila jantungmu berhenti berdenyut dan haitmu berhenti berdetak. Sebab itulah kau…”

Petir menggelegar hebat memekakkan telinga. Tetapi, lamunanku tak sedikitpun buyar. Kekuatanku menghipnotisnya telah sampai pada ujung dunia, tempatku berdiri. Tak perlu waktu lebih lama lagi untuk membuktikan sihir yang kupunya.

“AARRGGHHHH….!!!”

Kurobek dadanya dengan kuku-kuku telanjang, lalu kuambil jantung dan hatiku kembali. Mereka hampir lenyap. Mereka hampir mati di tangan pendosa. Tak setetes pun darah yang mengucur deras dari dada Badai. Siapa yang peduli?

“AARRGGHHHH….!!!”

Ia sudah merebut jantung dan hatiku. Kukira ia akan menyimpannya karena kami telah bersatu dalam cinta. Tapi, sekejap ia rusakkan semuanya karena matanya telah dibutakan cahaya penjuru yang mereka sebut Matahari. Tak ada yang bisa mengalahkan sinar mautnya. Maka, kurebut kembali jantung dan hatiku.

“AARRGGHHHH….!!!”

Tak lama, kusaksikan perlahan ia pergi dan tenggelam di ujung laut. Dunia yang tadinya oranye, berubah menjadi biru dan menua. Dunia yang tadinya cerah, berubah menjadi hitam. Dunia yang tadinya porak poranda, berubah menjadi sunyi. Dunia yang tadinya sibuk, berubah menjadi sesaat lengang. Dunia yang tadinya terus bergerak, berubah menjadi diam. Perlahan... Pasti...

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First posting on: Dunia Penulis :) 

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Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Happy Wonderful Christmas ♥

2011-12-25T15:02:00.002+07:00

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Christmas. Here I come. I’m so glad for having you in my life. Somehow I’m feeling this happiness in my deepest heart. Jesus was born to the world, give us joy and peace, throw away our sins, and He always gives us His blessing. Anytime, anywhere. He is real. He is our Savior, The Lord. Without Him, we’re nothing.

I didn’t know why I felt so different about this Christmas Eve. This year, it’s more beautiful, awesome, and lovely. I had a holy mass at church with my younger brother and I did it with all of my heart. I had some peaceful in my chest and everything’s good.

Then, I met Wendy and Titi at church. Gosh, how I miss them much! Ah, I just can't describe this beautiful Christmas. Yeah, this is the most awesome day that I've ever had in this year. I swear. Beside that, so many wishes that I said to God, as usual. I just believe in my heart that He will never getting bored to hear my prayer. Same wishes through the year.

Happy Christmas for everyone. Don't waste your time for doing something bad because the Lord has come. Let earth receive her King. Let every heart prepare Him room and Heaven and nature sing, and Heaven and nature sing, and Heaven, and Heaven, and nature sing. Yeaaayy! Joy to the World :D

Oh yeah, I wanna share a lyric about Christmas to you. It's really nice :)

Justin Bieber

Only Thing I Ever Get For Christmas

If you're the only thing I ever get for Christmas
Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas gift
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

I know someone out there knows what i'm saying
Baby you're a girl who's wishing just like me (yeah, yeah)
There is one, and you know who you are
My gift to you is all my heart
Make my holiday, and hear me when I say

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
 Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas gift
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

In the morning I know everybody's rushing
To see what's underneath the christmas tree
Know what I mean, cuz I don't find it there
And I need the mistletoe is where
You make my holidays, so hear me when I say
 

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
 Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas gift
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

Only you can make this...a merry merry Christmas

There is one, and you know who you are
My gift to you is all my heart
Make my holiday, and hear me when I say

If you're the only thing I ever get for christmas
 Then everything I wished for has come true
You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas gift
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, meet me there

All I ever wanted was you, this christmas
Yeah yeah yeah
I need you baby

You're the single light, I'm on my list
You're my one and only christmas wish
The mistletoe is where i'll be waiting, kiss me there
 
 I'll be waiting, kiss me there...

God bless us all the times.

Jesus loves us more than anything. Feliz Navidad ♥♥♥♥

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Between Should and Should Not

2011-12-23T09:55:00.000+07:00

You should not here. Come with your mom and dad on weekend, go for dinner, shopping, and do all the things together. You spend your time just because you have nothing to do with someone special outside there.

You should hang out with your boy. Hold hand each other, talking for some topics, laugh together, picks some sweet moments, and have a sweet kiss at night before you go home. You're still searching till you find him, find the right one in your life.

You should not here. Waiting for your daddy to take you home after campus-time. Sit alone at downtown with the blur-eyes, waiting your phone's charging, eat snacks then you're getting fatter. All by yourself. Feels like this world is your own.

You should have a romantic dinner with your boy at the same table. Talking about the day and the future, chat about your daily at home or campus. You realize how happy you are with your boy. You just wanna stay at that time forever. You wanna do this always because you really want to get some happiness.

You should not be envy with the others. When you see the couple walk around you, laugh together, and it seems so fun. You’re envy with the others because you have nothing like they have. You’re envy with the others because you really want to have the same thing like they do.

You should smile when you’re waiting for someone special. Just beg for the same wishes at nights and pray with all of your heart. Don’t you know that God is preparing something’s better than your dream? Don’t stop believing…

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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HOLY-DAY

2011-12-23T09:39:00.000+07:00

Wohoooo! This is the last week for me for having some lessons or subjects at the university. It's different from the other day. It seems that I have more spirit to do everything on this last week. The last spirit before holiday exactly. I just don't care with anything around me. One thing I know that I will have a holiday immediately! Wohoooo!!!

Yeah, I guess that holiday is a special moment for us. We can stay at home, doing nothing, lay on your bed, whooaaa... Heaven on earth! But in another side, I still have some projects to do. First, I should finish the story of my first novel. That is the task of Creative Writing. Actually, making a novel is really need a time. We should make storyline or theme at first, so we won't be confuse to make the story. Beside that, we should make some details or description to help us for describing the roles on the novel. When you are getting stuck, that storyline and the description will assist you to continue the story. It's very useful, trust me.

Beside that, I have to complete the presentation about Emma Roberts because I will present it to my lecture and all of my friends. This is one of the big projects from bahasa Indonesia. I have to learn how to do this presentation well and interesting. I hope I could finish it at the right time. Make a good article also and I have to do more practice, so I will not feel so nervous when I do that. I also hope I could get some stars from it. 5 stars more to 20 stars, I can reach A as the total score :)

Well, I just try to enjoy my holiday, even it's just for a week. I will use my leisure time to do something good even better. Hope I don't waste for time just for sleeping, playing games, or do something useless. Just wanna spend my time with all the people around me.

Welcome freedom. Welcome free time. Happy holiday! God bless us :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Christina Perri - A Thousand Years

2011-12-21T21:07:00.001+07:00

(Verse 1)
Heart beats fast
Colors and promises
How to be brave
How can I love when I'm afraid
To fall
But watching you stand alone
All of my doubt
Suddenly goes away somehow

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

(Verse 2)
Time stands still
Beauty I know she is
I will be brave
I will not let anything
Take away
What's standing in front of me
Every breath,
Every hour has come to this

One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

One step closer
One step closer

(Chorus)
I have died everyday
Waiting for you
Darlin' don't be afraid,
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

And all along I believed
I would find you
Time has brought
Your heart to me
I have loved you for a
Thousand years
I'll love you for a
Thousand more

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Rubik's World!

2011-12-17T17:04:00.000+07:00

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Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

2011-12-17T15:13:00.001+07:00

Gue lebih memilih mengerjakan tugas secara individual daripada harus bekerja dalam konteks "kelompok", tapi nggak ada satupun yang mau kerja dan sama sekali nggak ada kesadaran dari diri sendiri. Orang yang cuman numpang nama itu rasanya.................................. SUCKS banget.

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Potret Keriput

2011-12-01T23:23:00.000+07:00

Berkelana mereguk malam

Di antara sekumpulan kunang-kunang yang temaram

Alkohol digenggam, nikotin di tangan

Bersama angin, ‘kan dia bawa karam

Ia tertunduk dalam kubangan sia-sia

Sakit merenggut jiwa muda

Dalam sisa nafas yang tersisa

Dalam sesak yang menganga

Ia menuju tua

Kota keramaian penuh dosa

Keriput hiasi wajahnya

Murka Tuhan hampiri hidupnya

Mudanya, nikotin sang sahabat penggoda

Obat-obatan berubah wujud dalam darah

Alkohol mengawang di kepala

Segalanya terpecah...

Ia yang kupandangi

Ia yang ratapi

Lalu! Bagaimana potretku?

Sama...

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posted by: Writing Session Club 1st December 2011

December ♥

2011-12-01T07:58:00.003+07:00

Welcome, December! Well, to be honest, I'm too excited for waiting this month. Oh yes, I wanna say thank you for all the moments that I already had on November. I hope I could learn so many things from my past. So, I won't do the mistakes anymore. Moreover, I'm waiting for this Christmas. Oh God, I wish that I have a very beautiful day on my Christmas Eve. Too many wishes on my head. I pray all the nights for the same wishes. God, make it nice and please... fulfill all of my dreams become true. I heart you, Lord :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Jar of Hearts - Christina Perri

2011-11-27T15:00:00.002+07:00

No, I can't take one more step towards you

'Cause all that's waiting is regret

Don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore

You lost the love I loved the most

I learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

I hear you're asking all around

If I am anywhere to be found

But I have grown too strong

To ever fall back in your arms

I've learned to live half alive

And now you want me one more time

[Chorus:]

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Who do you think you are?

Dear, It took so long just to feel all right

Remember how to put back the light in my eyes

I wish I had missed the first time that we kissed

'Cause you broke all your promises

And now you're back

You don't get to get me back

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

So don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

[Chorus:]

And who do you think you are?

Runnin' 'round leaving scars

Collecting your jar of hearts

And tearing love apart

You're gonna catch a cold

From the ice inside your soul

Don't come back for me

Don't come back at all

Who do you think you are?

The Most Hectic Day was a Foolish Day

2011-11-25T23:21:00.003+07:00

Mumpung baru kejadian, nggak ada salahnya dong kalo gue bercerita sedikit demi sedikit mengenai suatu rentetan kejadian yang nggak ada abisnya ini. Well. It’s just a hectic Friday. Fuckin’ Friday exactly. So many experiences that I got today make me realize so many things. Life is full learning and we can get something useful from it. Di sinilah cerita bermulai…

Friday is a free day for me. Tapi, gue menyempatkan diri gue untuk mengikuti Dies Natalis 5 UMN. This is my campus’ 5^th anniversary. Congratulation, anyway. Abis ikut seminar tersebut, gue ke sms buat nyari makan. Tadinya, mau balik lagi kampus buat ikut seminat yang belum selesai, lalu lanjut ke workshop kecil-kecilan dari Ultimagz, dan terakhir Makrab Obscura.

Di sinilah awal mula segala aktivitas melenceng. Gue dapet tawaran job dari temen gue dengan fee yang lumayanlaaahh. Tapi, di situlah tantangannya. Gue harus melakukan suatu gerakan yang mana gue sama sekali nggak ahli, nggak minat nggak bakat nggak jago, nggak semua-muanya deh. Gue juga nggak tau kenapa, Tuhan membawa gue ke sana. Gue mengiyakan tawaran job tersebut dan kejadian-kejadian pun mulai menaungi gue.

Sebenernya, jam 4 itu gue ada pertemuan Ultimagz. Tapi gue malah pergi ke Jakarta buat briefing. Dikiranya briefingnya cuman sebentar. Nggak taunya sampe malem soalnya ada foto, latihan koreo, dan semacamnya. Bikin panik. Sumpah. Gue minta pulang duluan tapi nggak dikasih sama orang PHnya. Mereka bilang harus sampe selesai. Kita mesti latian sampe tuntas sampe akhirnya gue diberi kelonggaran biar gue bisa pulang. Alhasil, gue boleh balik tapi sendiri aja, soalnya koreo-nya belom kelar.

Mau gak mau, gue naik taksi sendiri menuju GS. Gue harus balik lagi ke kampus buat ikut Makrab Obscura. Sedari tadi gue nggak berenti ngeliatin jam, panik kayak orang gila, dan berdoa kapanpun itu! Gue bener-bener berharap bisa sampe di GS dengan aman, selamat, dan sentausa. Gue berharap bisa sampe tepat waktu. Gue berharap Obscura ngaret dan diundur waktunya. Gue berharap… berharap… berharap…

Di lain hal, puji Tuhan banget gue dapet taksi yang sopirnya nggak gue duga-duga. He’s like a doctor. I’m sure. He’s a very good adviser. Firstly, dia nanya sejak kapan gue pake kacamata. Lalu, semua berlanjut ke pembicaraan layaknya konsultasi dokter dan pasien. He said, “Makanan yang benar-benar harus dihindari adalah mie, telor, dan ayam boiler.”

Kemudian, pembicaraan hangat seputar kesehatan tersebut jadi memanjang sepanjang perjalanan. Gue jadi dapet banyak pengetahuan dari sopir tersebut dan gue ngerasa bersyukur banget karena Tuhan udah ngelindungin gue setiap saat. Dia udah melenyapkan rasa ketakutan gue. Dia nggak pernah ninggalin gue sedetikpun.

I’m sure, pandangan gue bener-bener nggak bisa luput dari jam. Dikit-dikit liat jam. Dikit-dikit liat jam. Sumpah paniknya nggak ada abis-abisnya. Mana hape gue mati gara-gara batere abis, belom ngasih kabar ke orang rumah, pulang sendirian menuju Tangerang, takut duit gue nggak cukup, geregetan gara-gara macet di jalanan, deg-degkan karena yakin kalo Obscura udah mulai, dan sebagainya. I swear, I wanna die at that time. Andai gue bisa menghentikan waktu.

Nah, sesampainya di kampus, gue nggak ngeliat satu pun anak Obscura. Gue tanya satpam, mereka nggak tau. Untungnya ada temen Break Dance gue yang bilang kalo mereka ada di lapangan parkir. Gue langsung ke sana buru-buru dan satu hal yang gue tahu… gue udah telat 1 jam lebih!

Nyampe di sana, gue nyamperin 1 senior Obscura. Gue disuruh lapor ke Sastra trus lapor lagi ke Inta terus nyari kelompok terus dapet keberadaan kelompok gue terus PIC di pos kelompok gue sensi sama gue terus begini terus begitu terus terus terus. For God’s sake, mau nggak mau gue harus terima konsekuensinya.

Nah, nggak lama kemudian, seluruh anak Obscura angkatan gue dikumpulin jadi satu. Senior berdiri di depan. Mereka manggilin anak-anak bermasalah. Mulai dari yang telat, nggak bawa ini, nggak bawa itu, salah dresscode, dan lain-lain. Well, gue maju ke depan bersama 8 anak lainnya yang dinilai bermasalah. Tapi jujur ya, gue ngerasa gue yang paling bermasalah. Paling klimaks lah lebih tepatnya! Telat 1 jam lebih itu rasa-rasanya kayak nggak ada toleransi.

Nah, 9 orang bermasalah tersebut (termasuk gue) dikumpulin agak jauhan dari anggota lainnya. Dibentak-bentak berasa nggak ada harga diri, terus kita disuruh pulang. Yeah… para PIC mulai memainkan drama mereka yang lain. Gue udah tau akal-akalan mereka buat ngerjain kita-kita biar pada kapok. Makanya, gue mencoba buat sabar-sabar aja, deh. Jangan sampe gue kemakan emosi.

Gue dibentak, gue ditanya-tanyain, gue diginiin, gue digituin, bla bla bla. Jadi sasaran empuk, nih gue. Sebisa mungkin gue jawab pertanyaan mereka. Ya, gue jujur aja kalo gue abis dari Jakarta buat briefing, balik ke kampus sekitar jem 7an kurang gara-gara ditahan orang PH, macet, sampe akhirnya telat ikut makrab. Tadinya, gue udah pengen balik aja ke rumah, tapi berhubung gue serius, niat, dan gue pengen belajar lebih mendalam lagi tentang fotografi, gue bela-belain dateng lagi ke kampus!!! Gue ggak peduli harus ngeluarin ratusan ribu buat bayar taksi, nggak peduli mau dibentak sama senior, nggak peduli mau diapain di depan puluhan orang, bodo amatlah. Intinya kalo gue dateng berarti gue punya minat dan sungguh niat!

Duh, pokoknya 9 anak bermasalah itu tuh dipermaluin depan yang lain-lainnya, dikata-katain dengan omongan yang kasar, dibentak-bentak, disuruh pulang dan segala jurus mereka keluarkan. Entah buat apa. Gue terima-terima aja dah omongan mereka. Toh, gue udah tau kalo misalnya ini cuman “kerjaan” mereka doang biar kita-kita nggak ngulangin lagi kesalahan yang udah kita buat. Duh, pokoknya lama banget dah diginiin. Nasiiibbb -_______-

Sampe akhirnya, kita-kita boleh gabung lagi sama anggota Obscura yang lainnya karena mereka masih mau nerima kita. Lalu, kita disuruh merapat dan tutup mata. Ah, pasti mau disirem, pikir gue dalam hati. Kali ini satu angkatan yang kena omelan. Senior pada berkeliaran dan kanan-kiri gue pada teriak sana-sini. Mereka bilang, “Kalo kalian mau pulang, silakan! Toh nggak ada yang ngeliat kalian! Udah ada 2 temen kalian yang pulang.” Dalem hati gue, preeettt. Nggak mungkin banget! Ujung-ujungnya, salah satu senior menghitung… 1… 2… 3… Pasti mau disirem. Hati gue udah yakin banget. Kalopun bener, gue udah siap-siap aja kena guyur. Maklum, gue berdiri paling belakang di barisan gue. 4… 5… Byuuuurrr!! Beneran, kaaan disireeemm -______-

Done! Makrab Obscura berakhir dengan permohonan maaf para senior yang udah ngebentak-bentak kita semua, khususnya 9 anak yang tersebut. Udahlah, diem aja deh gue. Mau senyum aja susah, apalagi ketawa bareng sama yang lain. Bikin gue nggak respect aja deh sama senior biarpun gue tau dari awal kalo misalnya mereka cuman becanda doang. Gue ngerasa aga keterlaluan aja, sampe ketuanya aja maaf lagi soalnya katanya itu bener-bener di luar skenario. I just wanna try to take the positives' side from Makrab Obscura. Nggak boleh, deh ada dendam satu sama lain. Biarpun gitu, semua berakhir dengan menyenangkan dan kita resmi jadi anggota Obscura. Thanks a lot, God :)

Fiuuhhh... Selesailah sudah penyiksaan hari ini. Apa mau dikata. Kalo lo seneng, nantinya lo bakalan sedih. Kalo lo sedih, nantinya lo bakalan seneng. Hidup emang nggak pernah flat. Terima kasih Tuhan atas hari yang abstrak ini. Banyak banget hal yang gue tangkep dan mudah-mudahan di ke depannya gue tetep niat seterusnya dan tetep komitmen sama apa yang mau gue jalanin dengan serius. Terima kasih juga karena sampe detik ini gue baik-baik aja

Anyway, ada foto-foto candid senior Obscura yang berhasil gue ambil. Sorry, ya kalo hasilnya nggak terlalu bagus. God bless you all the times :D

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Random

2011-11-22T21:57:00.000+07:00

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥
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Broken Christmas

2011-11-21T19:50:00.008+07:00

One afternoon, I went into the shop which is selling so many kinds of accessories for Christmas. I saw so many colors in there and it feels like Christmas better come faster in our life.

I took a look around that shop with my fiends. Then, we decided to go out. But, when I wanted to go out of that shop, my bag accidentally dropped one of the thing in that shop.

Buukk!!! I saw my behind and I dropped that thing. "Sorry," I said. I didn't know exactly what is that until I went out of that shop and the woman came to me. She said, "The glass is broken."

Shocked! Oh God, I already broke that thing! Yeah, of course it means that I had to buy it even I didn't want to. I looked at the price and... Krik krik... I just thought that the small thing's so expensive and it's not really fair between the price and look. But, God had another story for me. Actually, the glass that I broke was getting 50% discount. Hallelujah!

There was nothing to say, I realized that this was my fault. I bought that broken glass of Christmas even I didn't want to. Actually, I didn't bring so much money from home so I borrowed some money from my friend. It's just a bad luck before celebrating Christmas Eve. Hahaha :D

I will save that broken glass and I am going to make a new version of that Christmas glass. I will explore my creativity as good as I could. I hope that this is not a bad beginning of my Christmas. I just wanna enjoy a good day with all of the people that I love. God always know what I want and He will gives me what I need. Happy Earlier Christmas! Oh damn, you the broken glass!

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Breathe Again - Sara Barreiles

2011-11-20T10:33:00.000+07:00

Car is parked, bags are packed, but what kind of heart doesn't look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch, the one I will still call yours?
All those words came undone and now I'm not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide if the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again

Open up next to you and my secrets become your truth
And the distance between that was sheltering me comes in full view
Hang my head, break my heart built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear is a love I can't carry anymore

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching
All I have, all I need, he's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands, still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again

Mr. Yellow-Public-Transport Driver

2011-11-16T07:07:00.017+07:00

Everybody has a limit of their own patience and it's totally different between each other. This is all I know at least. Today, I learned something from the incident that I saw this morning.

I was on my way to campus. As usual, I go by public transport. The first, its color is brown, then the second public transport is yellow. Aha, yellow! The main problem was starting.

I didn't know what happened with the driver. It seemed that he couldn't drive the car as well as the others could. I meant that he drove with a high-speed, like a race champion exactly. To be honest, I really hate it much. Why? Because it can make us feel so insecure. How about the crash or something unwanted like that? Don't you think that what the driver did was so dangerous for all the people in that car?

All along the way, I just felt so worried and anxious. Oh, damn! What the hell he did! Then, I almost reached my campus. But then, at the cross road of Plaza Summarecon, the driver changed the route. Usually, the driver will go ahead to campus, but for this day, he turned right at the different route. The woman (she works at my campus for marketing) who sat beside me said that to him...

Woman: Kampus, Bang. Ini ada yang mau ujian.

The driver didn't hear it. Moreover, the other woman who sat in my right side repeated it.

Woman 2: Bang, ada yang mau ujian. Ke kampus dulu.

This is what he said...

Driver: Namanya juga ngangkot! Masa iya mesti dianterin satu-satu?!

In my heart, I guess that he was getting angry. It sounded from the tone of his voice. In another said, the driver had a wrong conversation. Of course as a driver he has a responsibility for taking us to our destination. Watch your words, man.

Then, finally we went to campus. At the other cross road near Mitra 10, one of the people in the same public transport with me stopped the car. He gave his money to the driver and wait for "uang kembalian".

Man: (menyodorkan uang RP5.000,00)

Driver: (memberi uang kembalian RP2.000,00, tetapi belum sempat diambil si penumpang) Tadi dari mana?

Man: Dari prapatan, Bang.

Driver: Prapatan mana?

Man: Itu yang prapatan kantor. Udah Bang kembali 2000, biasanya juga segitu.

Driver: (menyodorkan uang 1000 perak)

Man: Lho, kok cuman segini? Biasanya juga 3000. Ah, korupsi mulu, sih! (Lalu pergi)

Driver: (mematikan mesin mobil lalu turun, berniat mengejar penumpang tersebut. Dia ngerasa gak terima dikatain korupsi) SIAPA YANG KORUPSI, HAHH?!?

Oh Gosh, it's just a simple thing about money. Why they had to get a little fight like that? Silly. Ya, maybe the driver was offend and he wanted to solve that ridiculous problem with his own way. Is there something wrong with the man? Or... I guess that there's something wrong with Mr. Yellow-Public-Transport Driver.

Fiuuuhh... A few minutes later, I arrived to campus and immediately came in there. Finally. A creepy driver for today. Crazy enough, man!

This is the moral value. I know that most of people in this world is looking for the money and save it for the future or their daily needs. The most effective thing that we can do is working. From it, we can earn some money. Of course in every job, we have our own duty that we have to do as the responsibilities. No matter what.

Sometimes, we have to set the priority so we can finish all the works before we meet the deadline. We must control our emotional feelings. It means that we have to work professionally. As I already said above that everybody has a limit of their own patience and it's totally different between each other. Most of time, mood and feelings may ruin the day.

Now, we have to realize that we live in society. We work with the other person. We work for the other person. Almost in everyday, we meet another person. It shows that we can not stay away from this social-life. I really know that there are so many challenges in front of our eyes. They are waiting for us outside there. Ya, it can be a measurement for ourselves to know the ability in life-experience.

This is the good opportunity to do the self-respect to the others, love each other, share about experiences, anything! Don't ever think that this is your own world because it just can make you blind of everything.

Dear Mr. Yellow-Public-Transport Driver, just calm down yourself and take a mirror. When you're getting mad, that's the devil inside your soul. Be patient with yourself and the others because this is a real world, a cruel world ever that you've ever seen! Anyway, thanks for giving me some inspirations to share on my blog. God bless you, man :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Miss My Pals!

2011-11-15T20:03:00.000+07:00

Someone tagged me this picture on my Facebook account. GOSH! I can't believe that I really miss them so much, especially for Sindhu and Eko. We've spent our time in togetherness and maybe high school already brought a sweet memory between me and them. We loved to came home together by motorcycle because we live in the same area. We used to do it almost in every school-day.

Well, I can't hardly wait for this December when we're gathering together again! Yuhuuuu. Lets back to the moment when we're do all the crazy things together in everytime and everywhere. Miss you already, pals!

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Yesterday Night

2011-11-15T20:02:00.000+07:00

Yesterday night was a big question in my mind. What? What happened? I just couldn't sleep well and tight. It feels like I've been thinking about something and it becomes a nightmare in my life. Full of randomness and I couldn't answer this.

I got up for many times and when I really wanted to sleep, I couldn't do it. Then, I turned the lamp off but it didn't work on me. Still couldn't sleep. I tried to hide under my blanket and closed my eyes. Oh gosh! It was useless. Moreover, my pillow couldn't help me to go to the fantasy world.

I went out of my room, saw the dark room outside, went to toilet, drank a glass of water, then went to bed again. Yeah, again and again for many times yesterday night.

Still the same. It becomes a big question mark in my head. Why I couldn't sleep tight last night? Is there something annoying beyond? So, what should I do to make myself like before? I just need a sweet night to take a rest, do energy-saving, close my eyes, and sleep. That's it.

Yeah, one thing that I know that... It's not the first time for me. I guess.

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Untung Sekarang Ada Internet, Kalau Dulu...

2011-11-14T16:56:00.000+07:00

Pernah nggak, sih kita membayangkan gimana ribetnya dunia tanpa internet? Pernah nggak kita berpikir betapa flat-nya hidup kita tanpa internet? Kalau sekarang, sih enak. Kalau dulu?

Well, nyatanya, internet membawa sensasi tersendiri bagi hidup kita. Internet juga membawa perubahan yang berarti bagi dunia teknologi zaman ini. Bagaimana tidak? Berbagai kemudahan ditawarkan dengan harga yang pas dan terjangkau. Tanpa internet, tentu kita tidak bisa mengakses dunia luar dengan lebih cepat dan efisien.

Dulu, gue harus mengerjakan segala sesuatu secara manual. Mengerjakan tugas dengan hasil tangan sendiri, mencari artikel dan mengguntingnya dari media cetak, mengirim surat lewat Pak Pos, wah... Semua serba lama, lho!

Sama kayak pengalaman gue berikut ini. Dulu, kalau gue mau ngirim surat ke suatu tempat, kantor pos jadi sasaran utama buat didatengin. Nyatanya, hanya itulah saluran satu-satunya untuk berkomunikasi jarak jauh (selain telepon dan alat komunikasi lainnya). Nah, kalau kita mau ngirim surat, kan agak ribet tuh. Harus beli amplop, perangko, dll. Di samping itu, pas kita udah masukkin surat kita ke dalam pos surat, kita nggak tau apakah surat itu bekalan nyampe di tangan sang penerima secara langsung atau enggak sama sekali. Kalaupun nyampe, harus nunggu berapa lama?

So, sia-sia dong kalau selama ini kita nunggu balesan surat yang nggak tau juntrungnya ke mana? Makanya, kalau dipikir lebih jauh, agak repot dan kurang fleksibel gituuuu...

Sekarang, dengan adanya internet, bakalan cepet, deh untuk berkomunikasi dengan orang lain. Pernah suatu waktu gue iseng-iseng ngirim surat melalui surat elektronik atau email. Isi surat itu adalah puisi yang bertemakan “nasionalisme”. Puisi itu gue kirim ke salah satu website yang apabila dimuat, akan mendapat merchandise menarik.

Dengan keterangan "Pesan Terkirim" pada layar komputer,membuat gue cukup lega dan percaya kalau puisi gue emang udah masuk ke email mereka. Bener aja, beberapa hari kemudian gue dapet email balasan yang menyatakan bahwa puisi gue layak masuk website mereka dan gue pun dapet merchandise menarik. Semua itu gara-gara internet, lho!

Bila ditilik lebih dalam lagi, semua memang berbeda kenyataannya dengan yang ada pada saat ini. Sekarang, semua pengerjaan bisa menjadi lebih mudah dengan adanya jaringan ini. Nggak hanya bisa mengirim surat secara cepat dan tepat melalui laman penyedia surat elektronik, tetapi dalam mengerjakan tugas agar lebih cepat selesai dan mencari artikel pada laman-laman tertentu juga amatlah mudah. Tinggal klik, klik, klik, pilih, pilih, pilih, ENTER!

Pernah, nih gue punya pengalaman serupa (lagi). Sebagai mahasiswa, nggak dimungkiri, dong kalau tugas-tugas semakin menggunung setiap harinya. Adaaaaa aja yang harus dikerjain. Udah nguras tenaga, nguras otak, capek pula!

Suatu hari, salah satu dosen memberi tugas kelompok untuk membuat rangkuman materi tentang Sejarah Perkembangan Komunikasi. Well, dalam pengerjaannya, gue barengan temen gue online bareng-bareng dan ngerjain itu semua lewat internet.Pengerjaan yang nggak memakan waktu terlalu lama ternyata beneran lebih efisien! Sampai akhirnya, kerjaan kita selesai tepat waktu dan hasilnya memuaskan.

Kita nggak perlu bertatap muka secara langsung yang memang terkadang dirasa kurang efektif. Belum lagi adanya gangguan sana-sini yang bisa memperlambat pekerjaan kita. Nah, dengan adanya berbagai fasilitas yang disediakan internet benar-benar memudahkan tanggung jawab kita. Di sisi lain, internet bisa menjadi sarana kita untuk memperoleh informasi, hiburan, dan lain-lain. Nggak percaya?

Dulu, kalau lagi bosen dan nggak ada kerjaan, gue pasti bingung mau ngapain, deh. Mau ini males, mau itu males. Sekarang, saat internet seperti sudah menjadi kebutuhan kita bersama, kita browsing berbagai situs terkemuka, bisa memanfaatkan situs jejaring sosial untuk mendapat teman baru atau bertemu teman lama, bisa curhat lewat blog, bisa video call dengan orang-orang yang jauh di sana, bisa mengunggah video dan mengapresiasi karya lain. Wah! Kebayang, kan betapa menyenangkannya bila ada internet?

Ditambah lagi, internet bukan hanya bisa dinikmati lewat komputer atau laptop pribadi, sekarang... Pake handphone pun juga bisa! Dijamin cihuy banget, deh! Kalau kita mau baca Warta Kota lewat internet juga bisa, dong! Apalagi kalau pake XL! Jaringannya luas, informasinya terjamin, dan aksesnya cepat! Tinggal klik aja, sob!

Wah... Untung sekarang ada internet,
kalau dulu...

OH NOOOOOOO!!! X_X

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Pray For Mid-Test

2011-11-11T12:00:00.000+07:00

Please... wish me luck for the first mid-test in college. Hope everything's better and I will be able to do all the questions from lecturers. I just wanna give my best and make all the people around me happy because of my achievements. I'm gonna reach the highest mountain, so I have to keep struggling for the best. See you soon on the next posting. God bless us all the times. Keep spirit, babe!

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Eleven for This Day, This Month, This Year

2011-11-11T11:11:00.002+07:00

Maybe today is a very special day for most of people in this world. Eleven. Eleventh day, eleventh month, two thousand and eleven. Do you have some wishes for today? I don't know should I believe with this beautiful number or not. But, it's so fun for having this beautiful day in this month, in this year. I really hope that something good and very special will come to my life. Have a nice day for everyone :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

2011-11-11T10:59:00.003+07:00

2011-11-11T10:50:00.002+07:00

I Only Know How To Love - The Canadian Tenors ♥

2011-11-06T09:14:00.000+07:00

They say love can take you far

Be yourself and there you are

Once in a lifetime

When will she be mine heaven knows

Love can take you

Up the mountains down below

Day or night she won't let go

Love's like a warm wind

Sworn to the feeling, need to know

What does it feel like

When can I say

It's the furthest that I've ever been

And I've found a way

What does it sound like

When will I know

How does it feel like letting go

A memory of - I only know how to love

When I dream I'm in her arms

Feeling safe and far from harm

She knows where I've been

Places that I've seen

Need to know

Heaven tell me

What does it feel like

When can I say

It's the furthest that I've ever been

And I've found a way

What does it sound like

When will I know

How does it feel like letting go

A memory of - i only know how to love

Deep down inside

She's here tonight by my side

What does it sound like

When will I know

How does it feel like letting go

A memory of-I only know how to love

I only know how to love

Sometimes

2011-10-31T00:58:00.010+07:00

Sometimes, maybe I have to close my eyes and feel the situation around me so deeply. Try to realize how blind this life, this love, money, or anything else. I just wanna feel how much happiness that I already got, how much love that I already gave, how much tears ran down my face at the night, how much sadness that I already had, how much pain that I already received.

Sometimes, when we are on the top, we just open our eyes and look around us. Oh, this is a truly life. Amazing! So grateful for having this beautiful life. Vice versa, when we are on the shortest place, we just can close our eyes. We hope that it's just a nightmare in our dream. We hope that we can run away from all of the problems. We hope that we have a new life like when we are on the top. We hope we can skip the past. We hope... We hope... Only hope.

Sometimes, I'm just tired of saying, "Hey, Be strong! Everything's gonna be alright soon! Cheer up and up!" I just don't know, why should I say those words? In fact, it's hard to face the truth and it's not easy to accept those words in our whole life. It sounds like a bullshit and we don't have to hear it.

Sometimes, I hate this world. Ya, I hate this world. Really! It's very crazy, high-tempered, and the world is sooo..... selfish. Escape from the fate? Maybe it can be one of the alternatives for the dorks who always give up on their duty. Sorry, I don't take a part of this.

I really don't know what's in my head right now. I always pray in every nights. Begging for the same wishes that I really want in my life. I know it for sure. I just wanna close my eyes and think so clearly. It disrupts my heart. I can not feel anything beyond these imaginations. Full of randomness.

I really know that Lord is trying to give me the best. He is trying to answer all my prayers. He just wants to give me so many chances and challenges, so I can have something good to learn from my experience. He wants to see my efforts. He puts me up and down. It doesn't matter, that's why we called it as life.

But, when He knocks my heart and says, "I will make your dreams come true," I feel like something is tearing my heart apart. I've never satisfied. I always lost my chance. Same like this. No matter how hard I tried to catch another meaning, I just hurt myself. It seems like I deny it. Pathetic, right?

Sometimes, I called myself naive. Ya, because I'm too selfish to think something around me. Seems like it will never change for a little time. I need a progress to realize. I just want to get out of this world and do all the desires from myself. No matter what. Sucks!

And when I remembered all the prayers that I said, my heart sank. God came into my heart and sow a new seed. He is the one who understands me. He is the one who wants to appreciate all my hard-work. He will always listen to every word in my prayers. He is my Savior and without Him, I'm nothing.

I just wanna try to be myself. I just wanna dreams come true. I will do anything to make it real because I know God's in my heart. He will open the way and make it easier, make it possible. He will never and ever leave alone here in the dark room. I believe that His plans are better than my dreams.

Someday, I will live happily with all of the people I love. I will be satisfy because I have something's better and useful for the Lord, for my parents, my friends, all of the people in this world, and of course for myself. I will make them happy also! I will keep struggle and face anything with the sweetest smile. God, please stay in my heart forever. Please, always be with me, be with us :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Kami Generasi Merah Puith

2011-10-30T19:10:00.036+07:00

Dua hari yang lalu, gue sama temen-temen yang lain mengikuti Seminar Nasionalis yang diadakan oleh Rencang, salah satu UKM yang ada di kampus gue. Seminar ini dimulai sekitar jam 2an siang. Seminar ini dibuka oleh penampilan dari Ultima Sonora. Kelompok paduan suara ini memamerkan suara merdu mereka yang beneran bikin merinding! Unfortunately, I didn't take their pictures :(

Oh ya, pembicara yang hadir dalam seminar kali ini adalah Eros Djarot dan Iman Usman. Antusiasme dari para peserta yang hadir, sih lumayan banyak. Walaupun makin mendekati berakhirnya acara, satu persatu dari peserta meninggalkan ruangan. Nggak tau juga ya, kenapa. Mungkin pengen balik, udah sore, capek, ngantuk, dan sebagainya. Hehehehe :D

Tapiiiiii, buat gue dan temen-temen gue yang lainnya, ikut acara dari awal sampai akhir, sih hukumnya wajib! Nggak mau rugi, dong udah bayar tapi nggak bisa menikmati seminar dan hiburan yang diberikan. Oh ya, seminar ini bertepatan dengan Hari Sumpah Pemuda, Maka dari itu, kita kompakan pake batik, deh.

To be honest, pembicaranya sangat inspiring banget! Terutama Iman Usman. Dia masih muda, tapi prestasinya luar biasa. Kalo nggak percaya, boleh deh dicek di google :)

Nah, biar nggak bosen, tentu acara ini diselingi oleh penampilan dari temen-temen kita. Ada Salose, Gamaliel dan Audrey, juga Paroeh Waktoe. Asli! Penampilan mereka keren banget! Di saat lagi suntuk dan bosen karena terlalu lama duduk dan mendengarkan pembicaraan saat seminar berlangsung, kita jadi gerak-gerak semangat karena dihibur oleh mereka.

Proficiat untuk UKM Rencang dalam pelaksanaan Seminar Nasionalis Generasi Merah Putih. Semoga dengan mengikuti seminar ini, rasa nasionalisme di dalam hati kita bisa semakin bertambah. Sukses untuk acara-acara lainnya. Rencang! AYE!

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Happy Frog's Day, Desseeehh ♥

2011-10-28T18:51:00.012+07:00

AHA! This just a little surprise for my beloved friend, Desy Hartini. We gave her a birthday donuts. She was very surprising and we really knew that she's so happy!

Look at this picture. This is the birthday donuts for her. At the first time, we really confused how to give her this surprise. But, really thanks for Imel and Sekar for helping me to make it rock! This surprise was so amazing!

Before she blew all the candles, we sang a "Happy Birthday" song together. She closed her eyes and..... Pssssttt... she was making a wish(es) :D

Let's blow the candles! What a wonderful day!

Yeaaaayy!!! Happy Birthday to you once again. May all the wishes will come true into your life. Wish you nothing but the best. God bless you, Deseeehh. Lova yaaa, besties!

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

We ♥ You, Pilot!

2011-10-22T00:38:00.009+07:00

The day was coming! It's time to let our beloved friend, Angela Y. Titisari to go to Philippine. I can't believe that she really wants to be a pilot. Amazing. But, I'm very support her passion and I really hope that her dreams will come true.

Before she went to Philippine a week ago, we joined the farewell party at SMS the day before. There was Sandy, Cinthya, Riri, Katherine, Zerica, Michael, Tora, and Me. We took some photos together with my SLR and laughed out loud. We know for sure that we're gonna miss that time so much!

Last Friday exactly, Bono, Nanda, Usman, Riri, Ncent, Jovian, Candy, Aldrian, and Me accompanied Titi to Soekarno-Hatta Airport. Again and again, we took some photos as a sweetest memories between us. To be honest, I love my beloved friend very much! I built this friendship when I was in Elementary School.

Oh yes, we gave her a little gift for her. We gave her an album which there's some photos and some messages for Titi. Luckily, she really loves that album. She said that she will never getting bored to open the album and read all the messages. Really appreciate it.

Well, we hope she will never and ever regret to choose it. We hope she will be very comfort there and enjoy the flight school with all of the handsome seniors. Hahahahaa. Don't forget to take your picts there! Share some amazing places or spot in Philippine for us. See you next year, pilot! Keep in touch :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

The Most Important Things

2011-10-21T07:07:00.001+07:00

1. Aksesoris

Tangan gue bakalan terasa hampa banget tanpa benda-benda unik dengan berbagai macam bentuk kayak gini. Terutama gelang dan jam. Nggak heran, deh kalo di kamar gue isinya tuh gelang yang bertebaran di sana-sini. Maklum, habis gue pake, suka sembarangan naro hehehe :)

2. Dompet dan Kartu Tanda Mahasiswa

Dompet itu penting bukan main. Sebenernya, sih yang penting tuh isinya karena kalo ada keperluan mendadak, kadang duit itu emang yang paling dibutuhin. Selain itu, KTM jga teramat sangat penting buat di kampus, terutama buat absensi kelas. By the way, foto gue di KTM gue sensor soalnya fotonya jueeeleek. Hahahaha. Makanya gue blur-in kayak gitu. Yang ada malah kayak foto tersangka gitu yang suka disensor -___-

3. Handphone dan charger

Woelaaah, handphone tuh berasa sahabat banget deh! Kalo lagi bosen, larinya ke hape. Kalo lagi seneng, larinya ke hape, kalo ada something, pasti larinya juga ke hape.Gue begitu menyadari betapa besar peranan penting si hape dalam kehidupan sehari-hari gue. Charger pun juga sama! Di kala hape lagi lowbatt dan butuh asupan energi, charger selalu bisa jadi pemasok tenaga buat si hape. Apalagi kalo grup bb udah ngoceh gak jelas, batere pasti jadi cepet drop. Makanya, nggak lagi-lagi, deh ninggalin charger di rumah.

4. Kacamata

Benda terpenting ke-4 yang nggak boleh gue lupain kalo pergi ke mana-mana. Tanpa kacamata, pandangan gue nggak akan jelas. Walaupun capek pake kacamata dan rasanya bikin mata lelah, tapi kacamata sangat-sangat membantu gue untuk melihat sesuatu. Kalo nggak bawa kacamata, bawaannya panik dan nyesel. Pandangan yang buram itu cukup menghambat aktivitas kita, lhoooo :(

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina ♥♥

Little Surprise for Riraayy :D

2011-10-18T22:44:00.001+07:00

This is the birthday donuts for Riri. Desy and me had an idea for giving her this birthday donuts as a birthday cake.

I wanna say big thanks especially for Mando because he already succeed for doing this secret mission. Oh yes, on this picture, he used a mask. That's the picture of Riri's boyfriend.

SURPRISEEE!! When Mando came to the class and brought the birthday donuts, Riri hid his face and cried. Actually, Riri was having a problem with her boyfriend and of course she was crying a river when she saw a picture of her beloved boyfriend. Sorry :'(

He was still crying. Uppsss. Cheer up!

Yeaaayyy. Finally she made a wish and blew all the candles. Happy 18th birthday for you, Riri. So sorry for this little surprise. We love you :)

Lots of love,

Sintia Astarina